Welcome friends, to a Community Grieving and Loving space, supported by ceremonial Cacao on 1 September 2019 in Rolle, Switzerland. It will be a space for us to come together to open our hearts to FEEL all that it means to be alive on this planet today. Please see full details at the bottom of this article.
There is so much pain and suffering, personal and collective, near and far, and it can feel unbearable to feel it, and even moreso to feel it alone.
I recently returned from the wild nature of Sweden and a deeply transformative experience of empowering the masculine within. One of the most important gifts of growth that I received during this retreat with Estera Saraswati and our team was to feel the pain of my heart opening.
My personal intention was to open the heart of my inner warrior, for my masculine to have the courage to really see and feel more, and take action from a place of love, to show how much he cares, standing up for...
"It takes courage to live in this world and it takes courage to love in this world."
A quote from Dan Millman
I agree. It takes a warrior spirit to keep choosing to open our hearts and dive into our vulnerability in order to be an expression of compassion for change.
My inner dialogue might go something like this:
I feel a surge of disappointment rising. Like a dark cloud passing in front of the sun, I am plunged into the darkness. I know this place. I don't like this place. Oh no! not again. I feel my rib-cage tightening and my heart closing as my thoughts get heavy and the whole world - out there - seems dull and disappointing through these darkened lenses. I feel bad so my mind thinks I am bad. I feel worthless and unloveable, so I judge and push everyone away. I resist. I fight. But I'm firmly stuck here in the mud and it feels ugly.
"My love. Be gentle with yourself," says my inner Warrior of Compassion. "How human of you to feel this....
Yep, you will see quite a few posts and programmes here for women. This one is only for you because you are important. At the core of all I do, the deepest longing in my heart, is that we come together, consciously, compassionately and support each other as human beings, beyond gender, to bring out the most potent, vibrant, healthy versions of ourselves.
This was text I included in my recent message to the women in the Living Sacred Womanhood project:
What about the Men ?
We acknowledge the real challenges and honour the greatness of men, our brothers. We, as women, come together to do our work to heal and cultivate that which is uniquely female, in order to be better prepared to initiate our brothers, bow at their feet, receive their gifts, meet heart to heart, and stand side by side, in equal measure.
We respect and are grateful to the men that do their own work together to heal and cultivate that which is...
In December 2013 I sat amongst over 300 people at Christian Pankhurst’s Heart Summit in Holland. I felt a part of me wanting to run screaming out of that huge circular room filled with all these strangers learning to feel more and be present in their hearts.
There was a part of me so afraid to be seen and to feel embarrassed or not good enough or unloveable.
The part of me that liked to keep everything in my environment under ‘control’ so that I didn’t need to feel vulnerable or feel what I didn’t like to feel was totally overwhelmed and freaking out.
As a highly sensitive empath everything in that room felt amplified 100 times.
I wanted out of there. I wanted to be alone to sort myself out and put everything back under control before coming back into the space, showing up just how I like to be!!
Have you ever felt like this?
In that moment, I didn’t leave. I put up my hand.
As the microphone got passed...
To life and love, I surrender. I open my body to the infinite love-making dance of Shiva-Shakti. This is the purpose of creating time and space for embodiment practices!!!
Breath • Movement • Sound • Touch.
Nothing feels more important than this – being in my body and experiencing life flow through me as emotion, energy, sensation, sound, vibrations…. LOVE
My practice is simply to open the energy channels in my body and then surrender to LIFE force and how she wants to move and be expressed.
I make myself available to love, health, vitality and abundance.
So I’d like to share with you today something I am madly passionate about, so much so that I have dedicated (at least) my last 6 years completely to this. (warning: I am madly passionate about this!)
That something is “Relationships” – how we relate to each other, which of course stems from how we relate to ourselves and Life. I call it “Conscious Connecting”.
I am going to attempt to gradually find written words to share my experiences with you. This is a start.
What I see around me is a society very, very confused about love, intimacy and relating, especially between men and women, and a lot of people suffering as a result.
In fact, rather than experiencing love, intimacy and conscious connecting, a lot of people are stuck in fear, control, attachment and projection, wrapped up together and called ‘love’. I was there and sometimes still am.
The unspoken truths often sound like:
If you are...
I choose to experience this lifetime as a journey, as a sacred pilgrimage, as an adventure deeper into the unknown, into the wilderness, with no fixed destination in mind as this would only limit my journey to that which I already know.
I wish to experience the journey with open heart and open mind and open senses so as to be fully available to the wisdom revealing itself to me and the guidance emerging for each next step.
I choose to feel my vulnerability as this journey unfolds and to meet it all with courage and humility.
The more I let go of the ‘me’ and ‘mine’, the more I open to ‘we’ and ‘us’, the more I am touched and humbled by the wings of Grace embracing and guiding all that is part of this magnificent voyage.
May we all find our joyful travel mates and always see the hand reaching out in support.
May we take our turn to courageously and wholeheartedly lead the way.
May we always remember to look back and to wait patiently...
Do you notice that during the winter months it can be easy to let your vibrations lower? Do you feel heavier and less motivated? It’s not the case for everyone but I certainly feel that I need to be more consciously and actively finding ways to raise my vibrations every day.
It’s because it’s darker and colder, you may be inside more, less active, eating more and heavier food, watching tv and spending more time looking at computer screens, and that will all affect your moods and thoughts.
It can be hard to just change your thoughts and mood because you want to. As soon as you take measures to raise your vibrations though, your thoughts and experience of life immediately change!
What does it mean to have high or low vibrations?
We all vibrate energetically at a particular frequency. The lower the frequency, the denser your energy. What you sometimes forget is that this directly affects...
I seem to be apologising a lot lately! My shadow side showing up and getting projected out on to others. Perhaps it’s a quick cutting comment, or an energetic withdrawal and being cold, or more easily being in conflict. Sometimes it’s a sense of inner turmoil and feeling down, with self-doubt and addictive or self-defeating patterns showing up. Bleh! I don’t like when this is going on. I feel my body tense and a bit numb to emotions. I feel my vibrations low. I can sense I’m being protective or defensive. My mind is not trustworthy.
It’s a bit like walking through a bog (very Irish analogy), trying to tip-toe through, yet every so often dropping in up to your knees, or even falling flat on your face in the mud, and then blaming someone else rather than laughing out loud and rolling around in it!
Does any of this resonate for you? I’m hearing it from many people these days.
But of course!! Of course it’s so strong right now at the time...
Longing is what drives you forward. It gives you courage. It fuels your passion. It ensures your innovation and evolution.
Often, however, we confuse it with a story of not having and get lost in the pain and suffering of ‘lack’. We seek quick fixes and ways to numb it out. We project and blame others for not meeting the need of this longing. We rant and rage. We grasp and fall victim.
Yet deep down this exquisite throbbing is a divine blessing, where pain and pleasure and power combine to ignite your life-force energy.
Longing pulls you out of mundane, mediocre existence. It inspires possibility and fuels greatness.
Longing makes you curious. It drives you to seek.
This longing yearns to be felt; felt by you.
What is this longing? Go deeper. And deeper again. Keep asking and go as deep as you can go to feel the true longing in your heart, in your body, in your soul.
Feel the energy, feel the...
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